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I'm Having a Bad Day Because...

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This is a great visual for the mental health community. I really love it. I would love to create one for the chronic illness/invisible illness community. There are so many things that a person with a daily illness would like to add, but it's not at all easy for us to admit these statements. It takes a lot of vulnerability. My own unique "I'm having a bad day because" statements would include, but not limited to:  "This post nasal drip is choking me and going to make me lose my mind." "I have the most painful eye sockets. Does ___ notice that my eyes look as puffy as they feel?" "I can't stop trembling, shaking, or get rid of this internal buzzing. Can____notice I'm shaking?" "Oh no, I have fuzzy vision again." "I'm so embarrassed by my inability to think of simple words." "The rash on my face is so red. It just burns. It's all I can think about. I feel so ugly right now." &

I Look Fine, but I Certainly Do Not Feel it

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Red Cheeks. I attempted peanut butter and this is what happened. This is *with* coverup on and it still shines brightly through.  45 minutes later... The day after when the shakes wouldn't go away no matter how much I ate or water I drank. For five days in a row, this has been my day in and day out. Ever taken care of kids--alone--with hypotension? It's tough! Let me preface all of this by saying, I get low blood pressure moments every.single.day of my life . It's my daily normal and I hardly even think anything of it anymore. I can bend over to pick up a toy, my vision goes blurry and my legs start to stiffen. I will reach up into the cupboard and I can feel my body going limp, yet my heart races. My body internally buzzes all day and all night. It's all very strange to describe, but I'm so used to it and understand what's happening, that anyone around me wouldn't know that I'm "just about" to pass out. I usually close my eyes