I'm Having a Bad Day Because...


This is a great visual for the mental health community. I really love it. I would love to create one for the chronic illness/invisible illness community. There are so many things that a person with a daily illness would like to add, but it's not at all easy for us to admit these statements. It takes a lot of vulnerability. My own unique "I'm having a bad day because" statements would include, but not limited to: 

"This post nasal drip is choking me and going to make me lose my mind."
"I have the most painful eye sockets. Does ___ notice that my eyes look as puffy as they feel?"
"I can't stop trembling, shaking, or get rid of this internal buzzing. Can____notice I'm shaking?"
"Oh no, I have fuzzy vision again."
"I'm so embarrassed by my inability to think of simple words."
"The rash on my face is so red. It just burns. It's all I can think about. I feel so ugly right now."
"I'm so defeated by extreme exhaustion."
"Will today be the next flare?"
"I'm hungry, but what can I eat that won't set my POTS into a tailspin or my Mast Cells into an allergic reaction?"
"I feel so weak."
"I want to play with the kids, but I need to sit/lay down."
"I hope I can make it through the day without my couch nap."
"I feel so misunderstood in all of this."
"I'm so tired from pretending I'm always okay in front of my husband, kids, friends, family."
"Why does this seem to be getting worse?" 
"Is it normal to be on the verge of tears because I'm so tired?"
"I wish I could eat that."
"But I only took one bite, why is this reaction so bad?"
"The amount of mast cell mediator medicine I take would knock out a cow."
"I wake up feeling worse, rather than rested; like I was beaten up in my sleep."

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