Behind the Scenes

During spring of 2020, the United States was put into an unprecedented shutdown of my entire lifetime. I was pouring 100+% of myself into helping fulfill remote school checklists and requirements all while my POTS and MCAS were debilitating. One day I was looking through my phone and I found this video that the kids took of me collapsed on the couch from a low blood pressure episode. When this happens, I shake, become very weak, and I can't keep my eyes open. Usually, I will fall asleep with my head on the kitchen table, but I remember this day because I could feel it starting to happen so I asked Micah if we could play Doctor so that I had an excuse to lay down. I don't even think it took me a minute before I was asleep. 

I'm tremendously proud of how the kids take care of me in such circumstances. I am very fortunate to have their care and love, but I also feel sad that they felt the need to video tape this moment. 


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