Living my Spiritual Plan

I am a woman of faith. It IS BECAUSE OF MY FAITH that each new day is a hope and a blessing. I believe The Lord uses people for His plan. While my physical pain is laughable compared to the majority of this world suffering with far worse, such as cancers or persecutions, I know He still uses my laughable pain when I let Him use me.

Just last Friday I learned that my daily symptoms (minus the low fever) is actually not a daily cold, but it's a daily sinus infection. Every day my MCAS feels like and mimics a sinus infection. Even after a round of antibiotics, I'm no "better" except that the low fever is gone. Every other symptom is still there, and I'm so sad to admit that the post nasal drip is even worse. The-bane-of-my-existence- symptom is now worse. 😢 The enemy will do that. It's the one symptom that I so desperately want to go away, and this past week, after antibiotics, it's worse than ever. Why? How? If that's not an attack to my spiritual plan, then what is it? No, the enemy will not win. While it frustrates me, and truth be told, gets depressing; I press on to The Lord. The Lord has a plan for this.

Maybe the plan is to show me that a round of antibiotics to treat what was supposedly a sinus infection didn't work and that means that I have a functioning issues with my sinuses that need fixed? Mast cells must be overpopulated in my sinuses and that's why this is happening? The Lord doesn't wish for us to suffer, but He does wish for us to lean on Him and to trust in Him. I trust He has a reason and I always feel thankful that He's ready to reveal such reasons at any time.

I'm always ready and willing for my Spiritual plan in all of this. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'm sprinting toward it or anything like that, but within time, I always realize God has a will and plan for what I'm facing. I have always leaned on Him during tough times and praised Him in good or bad. He is my strength and my joy in sorrows. I strive to live to be honored to fulfill it in any way that I can for His glory.
  

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